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me :iconjillibean:Jillibean 0 1
I know what I started
The decision was mine,
I shouldn’t have, but I wanted to.
So, so bad  I wanted to have you.
This thing we have I know means nothing.
You’re just using me as a distraction
From your main attraction,
And  I’m ok with that… at least I think.
But oh well for now, because
Again, the mind in my jeans writhes
Its so hard to ignore
With you standing naked in the door.
I give in  and I’m lost to lust.
Satisfied, but for only a moment.
The feeling of pleasure washed out by disgust.
So go a head, call me a slut.
I know you’re thinking it, because so am I.
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Why does the raven have blood on her wings?
To fly better perhaps, on past the the kings,
And higher on still, till she preceeds the sun
Finally stopping to contemplate what shes done.
Her eyes show no remorse
Only time will time will find the source
Of the rage wrought by pain
What shall become of the raven?
Does she deserve hell or a safe haven?
Judged and punished
Forgiven, set free
Can you look in her soul and tell me what you see?
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Somewhere, Sometime
A Blonde haired, blue eyed child
Sitting on her Father's knee
His memory discarded and forgotten
But still alive in me
You walked away and left behind
A life you said you didn't want
But late at night I wonder
That if I took a deeper look
What inside your heart I'd find
Remorse perhaps? Or maybe nothing.
I actually don't care.
What keeps me going is the thought
That somewhere, sometime
I was your daughter and you dared to love me.
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After a Bowl
Drink down lucky boot
Fortune storm the quiet sky
Hear heaven grace his girl
Garden of old weed
With wicked thought
Teach thee will to
Taste a stone pipe,
Music mad with jest,
Above affection our woe
Streams over mercy moon
Take prefect sun, think nothing.
Thrilling sound pure above curse
Curious bold color crazy dream
Dizzy drink deceive questions,
Remember the mischievous rain
Celebrate how her play tempt life
Envy a brilliant dance full of light
Imagine a kiss about a word
Art in all breaks
My cool gift this is
A poet bound by heart
It has never mattered much
Full discontent in meager measures
We could hear the river roar
Thus my angel staggered
Across solitary paradise…
Farwell too.
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Tell me your name,
Whisper it close
All I want
Is just a dose,
I need a fix,
Now get me high
What I ask
You wont deny
When its done
Lets move on
Why let love
Wreck all the fun.
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Let the Music Splatter
Neon  Lights flashing cold and bright
Eroding the line, between wrong and right
The bass beats in your ears
You don’t remember , your past fears.
Everything slows
as the adrenaline flows
Nothing matters
So let the music splatter
Against our skin,
I feel what has never been
And I don’t want to
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Pieces of Sky
These memories are just pieces of sky
Pieces of something much bigger than I
To anyone else, just pieces of blue
I see time framed a picture of you
These memories hold me like the moon holds the sea,
Like the sky holds the sun
The sea holds my tears and carries me
When my heart is too heavy for one
I best get busy livin', been along time gone
A dress made of air, webs and dew
The wet dreams evaporate as the come through
And its over, its over.
To anyone else just pieces of blue,
An invisible kite string connects me to  you
I know that its selfish to think you'd come here
There's so many people that need to know
That you're still with them even when you go.
And its over, its over.
How can i know how much I'll be missed
Does it all add up to some names on a list?
Do you know we're just pieces of sky,
pieces of time that keep drifting by.
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Revolutionary Love
We will change the world, You and I,
Walking Forward, one foot in front of the other
Side by side.
We will stay strong, our hands held tight
Firmly against the cold hard night.
The words that are said
We say together
In one voice we float like a feather.
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West.P and Me :iconjillibean:Jillibean 0 9 Rainbow illusionist :iconjillibean:Jillibean 0 4
In the Name of Freedom
They tell us of the enemy
They tell us shoot to kill
They tell us that our cause is just
They tell us we fight for freedom
Blood spills across the sand
Forgotten to the dessert
Killed by my own hand
In the name of freedom
She was just a kid
I am just a soldier
She was only playing
I was only following orders
I have fought and I have killed
For your righteous cause
But Mr. President,
You do not have to drill for freedom
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Love's Fleeting Song
What was once so strong
Is now fleeting
And I am left straining  
To hear love's song
For constant drums of warning
Are drowning out the sound
Their message resonating
Deep inside my core
They have awakened me
And I am able to see the truth
That in your heart, second place
Is where I will always be    
Growing tired of competing
For your limited attention
I am done
Your passionate verses
Upon thy lips
Have left a bitter taste
And all that's left are curses.
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Selfish and Superficial
   Down the crowded hallways we walk. Parting our way through the sea of unobservant
people. The persistent humming of their voices reverberates off the walls. Sadly we too
lend our voices to the growing sound. Talking of our next class and afterschool activities,
the bell rings-7 minutes don't leave much time for in-depth discussions. Going our separate ways we give each other a friendly wave. This is our interaction. Outside the confining  atmosphere of school it is different. Each of us trying to convince our selves of our sincerity but deep down we know we don't mean it. Our relationship is superficial, don't be fooled by a hug or a softly whispered sentiment because they are a guise for a notion that we ourselves can't face. Truly we are selfish and superficial.
   It has been over a year since the first date, since then there has been many like it.
Always the same- dinner, movie and then later on down the road bed was added
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Mothers :iconjillibean:Jillibean 0 5
She slips into the
Adorned in nothing but
At first she is
Of flaws only she can
Nervousness ebbing at her
But all that disappears with just one look from
She starts her hypnotic
Moving her body to the
Every motion accentuating the supple curves of her young
Tantalizing and
Seduction is the
Of the midnight
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United States
Current Residence: I am everywhere and no where
Favourite genre of music: Metal
Favourite photographer: Shannon!!!!!
Favourite style of art: surrealism or fantasy
Favourite cartoon character: Squidward
Personal Quote: " Ouch, God dammit!"
  • Listening to: nada
  • Reading: A text
  • Drinking: DEW!!!!
Im actually going to do this, i think it will be really good for me as an artist. expect new stuff to be posted as i go through the list.

An Amazing idea: THE CHALLENGE

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules:

1.) Make 100 pieces each one having a theme listed below. Only one theme per piece!

2.) No time limit so have fun!

3a.) Pieces should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the DA etiquette policy. Your pieces can be anything from sketches and doodles to great masterpieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that...
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) Make sure to update this list with a link to your deviation.



1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat :
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars :
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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life-exam Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2008
thanks for the fave!
westpenta Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2008
hey sexy face! Thanks for the fav.
KilikaMel Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2007
Thanks for the :+fav:. Much appreciated. :hug:
Lucid-Flame Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2007
thanks for the add! hehe
MehmetKursat Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thx for the fav <3
RawEm0tion Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2007
Thanks for the :+fav:, but it would be so much more appreciated if you could please :+fav: the original here. =)

Thanks! ^^
Jillibean Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2007
wow... i really need to pay more attention to my comment board more often. lol.
westpenta Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2006
Thanks for the fav sexy lady.
InfiniteShadow Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2006
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